Overthinker

Dear Brain,

It starts

My focus diverted,

My mind extroverted,

My heart disenfranchised,

My spirit running a marathon

Because the alteration 

Of my interrogation 

Makes for fumigation

And propagation 

Of my concentration

Which is no celebration of any sort

Why? 

Do-I 

Do-This 

To 

My-Self?

I do it to try and think myself into denying what’s in front of me

I make excuses like mountains pierce the sky

From below is looks possible but in actuality its an illusion

Disillusioned,

Delusion? Who me? 

You’re right 

I trade my peace of mind for forced oversight

In the slight,

Never may I might,

Eyes blinded by light,

What does this mean?

“It means I am having a dumb bitch moment and I know what I am getting myself into.

As I have been told by my close friend who is reassuring that I am being stupid,

Does it stop me? No.”

I still tread letting you feel like you matter

Letting it go on to avoid disaster 

Disaster of what?

Beats me

Self destruction…

But based on how this is going

I’m doing that all on my own without the help of you

So what do I do?

Take back what's mine

My focus Centered

My mind Bettered

My heart Validated

My spirit Calm

Because I'm no longer Fighting

The fractured pieces are realigning

My sanity is no longer declining

My inner peace is Redefining,

And it is Enshrining me

Bitch Im back, and it feels great

I am great and I know my worth

If you truly believe,

You can do better than me,

Then have at it

I'm tired of thinking on it

Love,

An Overthinker that refuses to think anymore

PS

To the person this about…… with love, Fuck you